How Nick Carter Is Healing One Year After Brother Aaron Carter's Death

Nick Carter is sharing an update on his grief journey after the loss of his younger brother, Aaron Carter.

The "Aaron's Party" singer passed away last November at age 34, leaving behind friends and family including his now-22-month-old son Prince. For Nick, losing Aaron has been especially devasting given how "no matter what he and I had gone through in our lives, we always were able to make amends, always were able to get back to that place—and now I can't anymore and it hurts."

"It's still unbelievable to me," Nick said of Aaron's death—due to accidental drowning—in an exclusive interview with E! News' Francesca Amiker. "I'm still processing the whole situation and trying to make sense of it—because it hasn't."

The Backstreet Boys star continued tearfully, "But I'm hoping that one day I can make sense of it all."

In his grief, Nick has been leaning on wife Lauren Kitt Carter and their three kids: Odin, 7, Saoirse, 4, and Pearl, 2. 

"My children are my everything," he explained. "If I lost everything—if I wasn't a Backstreet Boy anymore, if I didn't have the opportunity to still perform for people and entertain them—as long as they still had my kids and still had my family, I'd be OK. All this stuff on the outside doesn't matter to me."

In fact, Nick cherishes each and every moment of parenthood no matter how small. As part of his healing journey, he's finding comfort in "trying to be the best father that I can."

"That's what I focus on," the 43-year-old shared. "Being present with my children, listening to them, parent-teacher conferences, driving them to school, taking them to Halloweens and being there when they want to trick-or-treat."

The pop star has also found solace in music. His newly released single "Made for Us" is dedicated to fans who've supported him through thick and thin over the years, with Nick singing in one of the lines, "Always said maybe in another life / Yeah, I could be your love and, baby, you could be mine."

"The reason why I thought that stuck out was I've had so many times where a fan would come up to me and say, 'I want you to know, you were supposed to be my husband,'" Nick noted. "So, here's the song for you. You can have it. This song was made for us."

Nick's song "Made For Us" is out now, with his Who I Am Tour running through November.

Keep reading to look back on Aaron's life in pictures.

The singer appears with Mel C from the Spice Girls in Hamburg, Germany.

Aaron appears on Bravo All Stars.

Aaron appears with Diddy at MTV's Big Help Concert.

Aaron appears at the Grammy Awards.

The brothers appear together at the Billboard Music Awards.

Aaron hangs out with big brother Nick Carter at the Billboard Music Awards.

Aaron and fellow singer Billy Gilman appear onstage.

The two attend the annual Dream Halloween Los Angeles event benefiting Children Affected by AIDS Foundation (CAAF).

Aaron and brother Nick Carter appear at 102.7 KIIS-FM's Wango Tango concert at the Rose Bowl in Pasadena, Calif.

The singer appears with his girlfriend at an after-party for the premiere of The Lizzie McGuire Movie.

Aaron meets up with his bro Nick Carter's Backstreet Boys band mates A.J. McClean and Brian Littrell at a Grammys event.

The two appear together at an MTV VMAs party.

Aaron dances with Karina Smirnoff on the show.

Aaron and DWTS partner Karina Smirnoff showcase their moves.

The singer poses during a handprint ceremony and meet & greet with fans as he visits Planet Hollywood Times Square in New York City.

The singers attend Project Angel Food's 2017 Angel Awards.

The singer poses for portrait sitting in an Ulloo42 chair at the Visual Snow Initiative visits The Artists Projecton event in L.A.

Aaron performs at the H-E-B Center in Cedar Park, Texas.

The two, at the time expecting their son Prince, appear at the Celebrity Boxing Face Off between Aaron and Lamar Odom, who won the match.

Aaron appears in the delivery room with his son, Prince.

The star arrives at the Kings of Hustler male revue at Larry Flynt's Hustler Club in Las Vegas.